Today I Don’t Care (Radio Edit)

I read some books I write some lines
To find some meaning in our time
But today I don’t care
‘Cos I don’t want to think about who I am
What is a woman, what is a man?
Today I don’t care

‘Cos I can tell you a theory it’ll blow your mind
Leave you confused in these already troubled times
I can tell you a theory to help you to lose your way
Are you a liberal, or a radical, a postmodern babe?

Strike up the band I want to sing
Nothing else means a thing
Today I don’t care
Strike up the band I want to play
You’re in my mind, you’re in my way

Let me tell you a story to ease your mind
Soothe your soul in these troubled times
I can tell you a story to help you to find your way
Is this is a liberal, or a radical, postmodern day

Strike up the band I want to sing
Nothing else means a thing
Today I don’t care
Strike up the band I want to play
You’re in my mind, you’re in my way

Strike up the band I want to sing
Nothing else means a thing
I don’t care
Strike up the band I want to play
Light your lamps let me see you sway

All I want to do is sing
Nothing else means a thing
All I want to do is sing
Nothing else means a thing
All I want to do is sing
Nothing else means a thing

Dream Of Me

I was alone when I felt your hand
I was alone when I heard you understand
And I was there to remember what you said
“Prepare to live with your dreams inside your head”

But are you thinking of me when she loves you tonight?
And are you thinking of me when she is holding you tight?
Tell me does she know that your mind is with me?
Tell me does she know that when you dream you dream of me?

For who can breathe when devastation falls
And who can live with the guilt of it all
And who can laugh while the innocent weep
Prepare to live, let your conscience rest in peace

But are you thinking of me when she loves you tonight?
Are you thinking of me when she is holding you tight?
Tell me does she know that your mind is with me?
Tell me does she know that when you dream you dream of me?

I was alone when I heard you call
I was alone when I saw you stumbling to fall
And I was there to remember what you said
“Prepare to live with your dreams inside your head”

But are you thinking of me when she loves you tonight?
And are you thinking of me when she is holding you tight?
Tell me does she know that your mind is with me?
Tell me does she know you even wanted to be free?
Tell me does she know your mind, your heart, is with me?
Tell me does she know that when you dream you dream of me?

I Love You

I want to sing for you a song
Don’t want to sing it loud or sing it wrong
It’s a song for you
And it’s just a simple melody
And I hope I won’t sing it way out of key
It’s a song from me to you
And it says,
“I love you”

They always say words are hard to find
But I know what to say, what’s on my mind
It’s a message to you
And I want you to hear these words I say
Don’t turn around, don’t walk away
It’s a message from me to you
And it says,
“I love you”

Is it so inconceivable?
Is it so unbelievable?
That you’d hide your fear in doubt
Searching for a way out
Because I love
I love you

I want to sing for you a song
And I don’t want to sing it loud or sing it wrong
It’s a song from me to you
And it says
“I love you”

Drowning

Did you hear me scream and shout
Crying let me out
‘Cos I’m drowning

So many words to say
Only my voice gets in the way
And now I’m past the point

And I hear you saying baby
I’d die if you would leave
It’s the truth believe me

My tender-hearted mind
Reveals the ruins that I find
As I’m waiting

Is this a lesson I can’t learn
Or maybe a truth that I can’t turn
That finds me falling

As I hear you saying baby
I’d die if you would leave me
It’s the truth believe me

You’re my heart
You’re my soul
I need to keep you here to keep me whole

He said, baby, I’d die if you would leave me
If you’d ever deceive me
Baby, I’d die if you would leave me
It’s the truth believe me

You’re my heart
You’re my soul
I need to keep you here to keep me whole

He said, baby, I’d die if you would leave me
If you’d ever deceive me

Did you hear me scream and shout
Crying let me out
I’m drowning

Angeli

I hate it when you laugh at me
I hate it when you smile so cruelly
You see, I don’t understand

I hate it when your stare is so cool
I never know quite what to say or what to do
But you know, I won’t breathe a word

‘Cos I guess I have been shaken
Maybe I was mistaken
I do believe I have been taken for a fool

There was a time when you smiled with me
There was a time when you looked so lovingly
But now I can feel a change

See I know that my jokes they don’t make you laugh anymore
It isn’t with, it’s at, I know and I am sure
You can deny it if you will

But I’ve seen and I‘ve heard it
And you’re just not worth this
You can mislead I was misled

And I guess that I have been shaken
Maybe I was mistaken
I do believe I have been taken
Angeli, Angeli
Oooo babe you’ve been taken for a fool

I guess I’ve been shaken
Maybe I was mistaken
I’ve been taken
Angeli, Angeli
Oooo babe you’ve been taken for a fool

The night is drawing in and the light is fading low and dim
And there are things we have to say.

See I know that my jokes they don’t make you laugh anymore
It isn’t with, it’s at, I know and I am sure
You can deny it if you will

But I’ve seen and I have heard it
I didn’t think I deserved this
Oooo, I have been sadly misled

And I guess that I have been shaken
Maybe I was mistaken
I’ve been taken
Angeli, Angeli
Oooo babe, you’ve been taken for a fool

I guess I’ve been shaken
Maybe I was mistaken
Angeli, Angeli,
Oooo babe, you’ve been taken for a fool

Face Tomorrow

Here
I’m here to know
For you to tell
If you can share your sorrows

Speak
I’ll hear the words
If you can tell
If you can face tomorrow

Tears
That will not fall
For should they fall
They might drown the ocean

Desperation is all I see
Isolation is all I feel

Sleep
Is not to rest
Is still to hear, to see
Those faces that hold me

Fear
This tiny word
That rules my mind
That rules this mind that’s broken

Desperation is all I see
Isolation is all I feel

Here
I’m here to know
For you to tell
If you can share your sorrows

Speak
I’ll hear the words
If you can tell
If you can face tomorrow

Now

Haunted

Every place we go I think of you
Every place we go I wish that I was there with you
The time that’s passing isn’t helping me at all
You’re what I need, what I cling to
I can’t forget, I can recall

Because I’m
Haunted by the memory of you
Each touch, each kiss you gave me
The place that only you can take me to
Haunted by your face, by your smile
But for a little while
Maybe just for a little while
I thought he was you

I took a chance when I set you free
You said you’d come home, you’d come back to me
But now it’s hard to face these weary days and nights
Only waiting for the answers
Knowing the wrong to make things right

Because I’m
Haunted by the memory of you
Each touch, each kiss you gave me
The place that only you can take me to
Haunted by your face, by your smile
But for a little while
Maybe just for a little while
I thought he was you

Because I’m
Haunted by the memory of you
Each touch, each kiss you gave me
The place that only you can take me to
Haunted by your face, by your smile
But for a little while
Maybe just for a little while
I thought he was you

Fool For You

I heard a story
I still don’t know if it’s true
About a sweet talking man
And a lady just like you

He took his time, traveled easy
While things lay heavy on her mind
He was east of Tulsa
She was west of nowhere

Saying
Fool for you
I know I’m just a fool for you
But you make me feel
You make me feel
Like I can’t choose

He was calm
While she was desperate
He could be cool
She prayed not

Nights online
She will be waiting
To hear his voice say,
“I know it isn’t easy
But tell me, how does this feel tonight?
Does your heart beat?
Is your body shaking?”

Saying
Fool, I know I’m just a fool
But he makes me feel
She said he makes me feel
Like I can’t choose

Fool, I know I’m just a fool
But he makes me feel
You know he makes me feel
Like I can’t choose

I heard a story
You know, I know, It’s true

‘Care’

Is there a place that I can go
Is there a place where no-one ever needs to know
Where I can find out who I am
Amidst the confusion I can try to understand

I need some space to call me own
It’s overcrowded here but I’ve never felt more alone
You want that I should feel safe and secure
Can you give me what I’ve never had before?

And if I call
Will you come to my side?
Will you hold me if I cry?
Will you be here with me tonight?

‘Cos in the dark
The lights they shine so bright
Call me away into the night
I guess you’ll find me there
Oh I believe they call this care

You want me to tell you how I feel
I should open up these wounds they’ll never heal
You want me to help you to understand
Your hand of friendship is like a knife that cuts through the sand

And if I call
Will you come to my side?
Will you hold me if I cry?
Will you be here with me tonight?

‘Cos in the dark
The lights they shine so bright
Call me away into the night
I guess you’ll find me there
Oh I believe
I believe
They call this care

Desperate Times

This is the place that I go
Take you to see some people that I know
Living in quiet desperation

See the clock as it’s ticking on the wall
See their faces waiting for the time to pass and fall
Saying we’re not afraid anymore

But if only someone could
Hold me so tenderly
Remind me of how it used to be
When I was safe in my mother’s arms
Remind me of how it’s supposed to be
And hold me oh so tenderly
See I’m not afraid anymore
Safe in my mother’s arms

So lost and alone so dirty and so worn
Will you touch what another man would dare to scorn
Who would scorn such silent resignation

See the people as they’re scattered around your feet
And their eyes are so weary
They don’t care to meet a glance of hope
Which might mean their salvation

They’re only saying won’t you
Hold me so tenderly and remind me of how it used to be
When I was safe in my mother’s arms
Remind me of how it’s supposed to be
And hold me oh so tenderly
See I’m not afraid anymore
Safe in my mother’s arms

This is the place that I go
Take you to see some people that I know
Living in quiet desperation

Hear the clock as it’s ticking on the wall
See their faces waiting for the time to pass and fall
Saying we’re not afraid anymore

But if only someone could
Hold me so tenderly
Remind me of how it used to be
When I was safe in my mother’s arms
Remind me of how it’s supposed to be
And hold me oh so tenderly
See I’m not afraid anymore
Safe in my mother’s arms
Mother’s arms

Surely you know
And have seen
That these are desperate times

Heartland

Rivers roll, rivers rise
Rivers roll into the sea
I can hear my Heartland calling
Across the Irish Sea

There are nights when I am sleeping
Only dreams within my head
And the face that I remember
Is the face I can’t forget

And in my dream I was trembling
And my heart felt like a stone
As I waved away my childhood
I prayed I was not alone

Rivers roll, rivers rise
Rivers roll into the sea
I can hear my Heartland calling
Across the Irish Sea

And I prayed to be faithful
I prayed I would strong
And I believed that I was righteous
Hoped I was not wrong

But as I stand beneath these mountains
And as I look across the plain
I can hear my Heartland calling
Whispering my name

Mmmmmmmm

And when my destiny comes calling
And my heart lies like a stone
I will lay beneath the green land
My heart, my home

And when my destiny comes calling
And there is silence in my breast
I will lay beneath the green land
And my soul will be at rest

Rivers roll, rivers rise
Rivers roll into the sea
I will return to my Heartland
Across the Irish Sea

For when my destiny comes calling
And there is silence in my breast
I will lay beneath the green land
And my soul will be at rest

Rivers roll, rivers rise
Rivers roll into the sea
I will return to my Heartland
Far across the Irish Sea

Lament

Vocal Line & Piano

Calm Before The Storm

Piano Solo

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